The True Love

I have a girlfriend who is an American woman. I live in Japan and she lives in American. That is why we have been apart for more than 4 months. It's such a long time for me.. I just miss my girlfriend so much right now that I am writing this diary. I feel like crying now because I don't know what to do to be with her. However, I really want to find a way to be with her as soon as possible. What can I do? If I find a way to be with her, I want to do anything. I have been really lonely and missing her a lot, but she also has been sad because of me. I haven't seen her smile recently....I feel like I am not good for her..I want to tell her that I really love her and want to be with her for the rest of my life. Our situation is not good at all. I want to change that. She is my everything. I know that since I met her last year. I love her.