It's the last part.

Because of this incident, I had a regret for a long time. When he called me and I didn't even answered his calls. Even though I thought it was just a small thing it turns out to be a big deal. So, from then, I promised to myself that I won't do such things. And I read his book written by his mother, I really respect him. I think if he still alives untill now, he would establish his own company and he would have a wondeful family. And I think that I want to be like him.

I try to be a good person, but I sometimes still do bad things. Whenever I am feeling down, I read this book again and again. And I really appreciate that I am still live now and live in peace.

Well, He is no longer in this world, but I believe he watches over me. When I feel alone, and I have no friends to talk to about my worries, I feel he's there and listening to me. I really miss him, and I want to meet him again. Maybe if I died, I will see him. I will do my best to the right thing in my life to have a chance to be with him in heaven.